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Rubric Of Perception
Monday, August 14, 2006

How was it?

I reply but you question my three word answer, "It was fine." "That's all?" you inquire. Telling the truth while getting you to end the conversation I respond that I'm tired. It's the rubric you perceive my answer on. Yours doesn't match up with mine. You're looking for a good, I learned a lot, a specific detail, wonderful, great. My fine or ok doesn't express to you my intention. You don't perceive what I say from my perspective. You only relate it to yours.

To me what's Ok or Fine isn't an experience that's negative or positive. Simply one that happened, that I absorbed (I'll get to that later - or not). To you my Ok or Fine means the experience wasn't worth while, that I didn't gain anything, or at least that's how you make out to be to me. I say Ok or Fine when others say good. So, when I say Good, perhaps I should be saying excellent as I leave plenty of room along the rubric rating line between choosing to change my Ok or Fine to Good (or not so well - or whatever word choice I choose at the time that takes me into the negative side). This all brings me back around the circle to the question of my lack of expression. But I'll leave it here to turn around in bed while exhausted and yet unable to sleep as I lay a little warm in the dark bedroom on what is an actual pillow.

**After Note: Today someone received what I said through my Rubric Of Perception and related it to theirs. This made me smile. (April 28, 2007)

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